Mama Says

Mama says:

"Wait for someone
who deserves you."

Yet
I look inside
and my soul
crawls
to think of what
could deserve
the Gordian knot
of me.

What
grace or blessing or joy
lies in recieving
what we deserve?

I know I don't
deserve you
and cannot
fathom
the concept of
whether or not
you deserve me.

I
only know
that caution is
killing me
inch by inch.

I'll
regret only
things I didn't
do,
every opportunity
I missed
with
you.